Wednesday, 3 January 2018

The Holiday Season...

Every year I'm well aware of Christmas coming, I even advertise my Christmas mini photo shoots as early as September, yet I still am 'up to my eyeballs' in photos still to edit, presents to wrap, guilty feelings of not sending out enough cards to everyone I know and making last minute to do lists on December 20th!

^^ that's what I wrote on December 20th 2017... then the rest was a complete blur and now it's 00:38 January 4th πŸ˜‘ Back to booking in more clients and more importantly wedding planning, though I kept having a play today and yesterday with the scrabble app I've recently got back into!  - I've had anxiety flood back into my body so I think it's been a bit of a distraction... I forgot how bad anxiety makes you feel, literally sick all the time, just not feeling right, aching all over, getting frustrated and upset when you don't want to be...
I had an amazing Christmas maybe it's just the January blues hitting me hard. I'm gonna keep being positive and hope it is anyway πŸ’œ

Thursday, 9 November 2017

Diary update...

11pm ish on a Thursday night, I've been editing photos from location shoots I did the other weekend all day, (well most of it) so I'm just enjoying a moment to myself making my way through a whole bowl of grapes. I decided if I've got time to stand here munching grapes and it's too late to reply to more emails or messages I've got time to do a little blog/diary post! 
At the moment I am loving Autumn,  but as always this time of year I have an influx of clients, it all starts with the Halloween sessions...then the autumn location shoots and then finally the Christmas minis all the way up until the second week of December as well as cake smashes and family shoots... so I am like on constant go at the moment. I'm not saying I'm always shooting or editing 24/7 (when I'm not sleeping) but because I want to always make sure I fit in all Roxys dog walks, which of course I have to take my camera with me for fun...then also doing my 'outfit' photos for Instagram most days, plus planning our wedding annnd the added temptation of autumns beauty outside, and fitting in catching up with all my friends, oh and Lush baths of course...I am really busy this time of year! But it's good to be busy, I love being busy, don't you agree? I still don't think I've ever got enough time for everything I want to do though!
I knew I'd write a few blog posts and leave it a little while (I'm guessing it's been about a month!?) before doing another, but I have been thinking about it a lot and have even made a little list of the things I'd like to cover soon...
I've also become obsessed with the chunky monkey almond ice cream by Ben &Jerrys, it's  so good to absentmindedly eat whilst editing or replying to emails. After blogging here about the peanut butter cookie Dairy free Ben&Jerrys I ended up finding the other two flavours in Tescos and i love the fudge one as well, but there's just something about the walnuts, the (not too strong) banana flavoured 'ice cream' and dark chocolate chunk pieces that make it so tasty! 

I'm hoping to do a little autumn winter clothes blog soon...I've got an order to make on NewLook and TopShop and then I think I'm set... though have you seen SkinnyDips new faux fur collection or   Irregular Choice's scarves and pillows? I am also really looking forward to Blackmilks Christmas release! I love to get one classic Christmassy print in something like a toastie dress or leggings and then get those staple pieces in maybe mulled wine red velvet or Forrest green velvet...
Which reminds me I got obsessed with looking at some velvet cushions in The Range at the weekend, but I wasn't in there to buy cushions so I stopped myself! (I was actually buying more photography props for my studio!)
That's me getting side tracked with clothes and shopping for the home! 

Right I'm going to publish this now incase I forget in the morning but in the morning I'll try to remember to do a little spell check! So my apologies if I've typed something wrong before I've removed this here at the bottom! 
Night ✨

Sunday, 15 October 2017

New Vegan Ben & Jerrys

Thank you Tesco! I couldn't find this new wonder anywhere, and just as I felt like I was getting even more behind the times I stumbled across the last pot of Peanut butter & cookies DAIRY FREE /VEGAN new BEN & JERRYS in Tescos normal ice cream section (so if you've been looking for it in the freefrom frozen section it might be why you've missed it)..opening the freezer door with one hand and grabbing the small tub of freezing cold almond paste (they've magically turned into icecream) I clocked the price... £5.50 for this tub, it better be good...
it was worth it though, and even though I'm not a great fan of peanut butter, the squidgy Oreo esque cookies that lay within the nutty ice cream made it a true delight πŸ˜‹

I cannot wait to try the other two flavours I've heard are out!

Click here to see my Instagram post Ben & Jerrys Dairy Free  πŸ’š

Autumn outfits

I LOVE autumn...nearly as much as I love Spring. I think it's just that spring is a more welcome thing after a long cold Winter, whereas we are never quite ready for Summer to end and turn into Autumn...

I do love getting cosy in autum outfits though! So far I've been loving TopShops jumpers perfect with velvet skirts and River Island & Newlooks cosy oversized knits perfect with leggings or skinny jeans... (but I don't own a pair of jeans at the moment so a pair of leggings from my extensive BlackMilkclothing collection will do just fine!)

The Jumper pictured is from TopShop, size 8 & was £22. I love the gold button detail on the sleeves, the neck is a funnel neck which along with the cosy knit material it keeps you really warm! It's slim fitting so great to tuck into a skirt instead of faffing around with bodysuits.
My skirt is by BlackMilk Clothing and is a velvet pocket skater skirt, also super soft & warm!
Today I'm wearing this jumper again paired with another leopard print skirt by BlackMilk, but this time the skirt is is pocketless, but what it lacks in pockets it makes up in matierial as it is perfect for swishing & twirling!

I also picked up this coat from NewLook this year, along with another velvet dress, I love wearing black with a bit of tartan thrown in there as you can see! Scarf from Riger Island, Tartan dress by BlackMilk Clothing (sorry I really should sort out my links!) & belt by Fox&Owl who should still have a shop on Etsy run by an amazing couple from America! Third pic is a BlackMilk Clothing skirt with my BAM Clothing tee tucked in and a cute green hat I found in TK Maxx. Finally in the last pic I've got an American apparel crop over a green tartan dress and that's also from (you've guessed it) BlackMilk Clothing! So these were my favourite pieces this Autumn, and probably will be next autumn too! As well as my tartan leggings and red velvet leggings too! 
Gotta love a warm colour scheme in Autumn πŸ‚ 

Saturday, 14 October 2017

Why now?

Thinking about why I started this account up in 2010 and never did anything with it... everyone had/has a blog, why do I need one? I think it was probably the thing everyone did at uni and I didn't want to be like everyone else, I thought too much back then, considered far too much and didn't live in the moment. If I tried to be like everyone else but then failed, that would be far worse than being myself, I could do me, I just didn't trust anyone enough to see the real me. Too many nasty people around my GCSE years... It's so strange to think I used to worry so much it's like it's all just fading away from me now (finally!)... lifting me out of its evil grasp of that sick in your stomach, or heart beating too fast - suddenly stuck in your throat feeling... I can very slightly almost make my face start to go cold & pale at the thought of it - a panic attack for no reason, deciding I am hideous & I cannot leave the house - that's all going away now, I'm learning to LOVE me, and quite a lot too! It's an amazing feeling and it is still a daily battle with my anxiety, worrying about things that could go wrong so often, but I'm stronger than it now and have the power to be in control of it.
Which is probably why I've finally decided to do the blog thing. I'm confident as me. I thought I was sure before, but didn't want to jinx it. Now I don't even believe in jinxing something πŸ˜‰
P.S i will get into some less intense causal blog stuff soon πŸ’œπŸŒŒ

Friday, 13 October 2017

There's always going to be that first ever post...

How do you start a blog off? I've only used Instagram (a lot!) and dabbled a little bit on tumblr & twitter...
At the moment I am 27... definitely feels like since I turned 20 the years have zoomed by so I thought before it's 2018 (2018!?!?) I want to start a proper blog. So here it is, my 'proper' blog.
I'd also call this a bedtime procrastination blog, seeing as I gave up editing half an hour ago at 3am, I should surely be in bed right now? No, starting a blog is far more important, it can't be held off any longer (apparently!)! So while my pup (Roxy the nearly 3 year old Chihuahua) stares at me through her crate, doing 'tilty head' at the sound of the rain on the window, I sit cross legged on the end of my bed, (close to the plugs as my iPad mini is low on battery from being used too much), back hurting from sitting like this too long whilst editing photos from work all day (I am a professional family photographer) doing my first ever blog post... 😴😴😴 anyway goodnight, even though it's been a cloudy one 🌌

P.s My fiancΓ© Jason is out night fishing for the second night tonight which is why I have bed to myself! I met him 10 years ago now when I was 17...we are getting married in 8 months so I will probably be blogging a bit of wedding inspiration too πŸ˜‰πŸ‘°πŸΌ